And where did all the time go?
Not a whole lot has gotten done around here, either, just the usual vacuuming up of cat hair, scooping up of cat poop, but fortunately I don't think there was any vomit involved this week.
It's been a stressful week, actually a stressful lot of weeks, with Keith just not able to settle down and having a lot of anxiety about his job and worry about the future and it didn't help that they almost ran over a drunken bum who was passed on on the tracks with his head laying on a cardboard pillow on the rail the other evening.
This week he went back into training mode after speaking with the trainmaster and supervisors and people like that, telling them that he just didn't feel completely ready for the job. They allowed him another 10 days of training which seems to be helping but he is still making himself sick with anxiety. So sick that I made him call the doctor and he went in on Monday and got some medication. Of course, it takes a few weeks for the meds to really kick in and then he has to go back to the doctor to see if they are working and if not to have the dosage adjusted.
I'm trying so hard to be patient but sometimes I just want to smack him upside the head and tell him to SNAP OUT OF IT! But, that is the wrong tactic when dealing with depression and anxiety. I think a big part of it is the fact that he turned 55 this year and sees most of his life behind him instead of ahead, and then there is the worry about having enough set aside so that we aren't living out of shopping carts in ten years when he turns 65 and wants to retire. Or laying on railroad tracks with cardboard pillows.
And, what else is going on?
Beautiful beautiful weather at least! October is one of the nicer months up here in Bakersfield land, with no need for air conditioners or heaters all month and the air hasn't gotten too dirty yet. Sunshine and birds singing all day! Windows open and sort of fresh air in the house. Too bad we don't have a beach nearby.